37 ELS AVENUE

merry christmas... ♥

well, actually merry boxing day. Thought I'd do a blog purely about my christmas day. Considering we forgot the prawns for the starter and couldn't fit the turkey in the oven, the dinner was lush! Chrismas dinner is always a fave. I was meant to get up at 9 and wake my parents up. Instead I got up at seven and decided to wait before waking them up. But they got up at 8 anyway. So we went and opened our presents. I got an iphone 4 with a case, some boots from topshop, a denim shirt (i mentioned it in a previous blog), a top, a dress, loads of lovely socks, soap and glory stuff, money and lakeside card, some brogues, and finally a luscious dressing gown. I got other stuff but I just cant remember it all.

Thats basically all this blog's about. sorry, I couldn't get tags for everything.

36 ELS AVENUE

sleeping beauty... ♥

I've been off school for barely a week, and my sleeping pattern is complete f****d. I went to bed at 2am two nights ago, and woke up at 4pm. I then stayed up and at 12ish thought it was still like 6 o'clock. It was horrible. Today I got up at half one. It's now five o'clock and it feels like eightish. Tonight I'm going to go to bed at a respectable time. Wake up before noon hopefully. And then I'll have another night to get my sleeping pattern back on track so I wont be going to sleep at silly o'clock on Christmas eve and not waking up until boxing day. I'm sure my parents would wake me up anyway. Wish me luck with sleeping.

35 ELS AVENUE

click click click... ♥

I got a new laptop the other day. It was a Christmas present. But my Dad was nice enough to give it to me earlier. I'm seriously in love with it! It's a Sony Vaio something or rather... I really wanted a white laptop. But the nicest one I could find was a Apple Mac. But they're apparently really rubbish and I don't really like the set up on it. I pr

efer good old windows 7. After all, it was my idea.

34 ELS AVENUE

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone... ♥

This title isn't suitable for this blog. I just remembered I'm meant to be doing my Romeo and Juliet essay again. I wont do it. I've re-done all of it apart from the conclusion. Which I'll do tomorrow night hopefully.

I went to lakeside today with Charlie. We left mine at quarter past twelve, and got the train to lakeside. We didn't get their until three o'clock. Our train was delayed and kept getting stuck so we had to swap trains adding on at least an hour and a half

onto the journey. It was torture. Especially the bit where we swapped trains because we sat near some of the biggest 'chimos' I've ever seen. They all h

ad emo black hair with like pink bits in. But one was in black skinny jeans and leather jacket, and another was in trackies! They were listening to stuff like Ndubz and Lil Wayne. Then changing their music to stuff like Slipnot and Breaking Benjamin! It was utterly ridiculous! But I grabbed the nicest caramel hot chocolate before we set off, s

o I was happy.

When we got there we spent hours shopping. But had bought nothing. Then, just as the shops were closing we went into Topshop. And I saw the nicest outfit ever! It was this button up sleeveless shirt with these dark blue cupro shorts. I couldn't find the exact links. But it's as close as I could get. But I was something like 5 pound off or something silly. And I couldn't try them off as the store was about to close. So I put them back. I then walked round and saw this really nice cape top. I

then walked around the shop some more and found the same shirt as before, in a dark red colour. I saw it and fell in love with it even more than the other one! (They don't have it on the website, so I couldn't do a link) I then went in Topman and bought a bracelet set. (which as well I can't find on the website) I'm in love with Topman jewelry at the moment. It's so my style. I like metal looking jewelry. Like, dark colours and stuff. I think my fashions a bit odd at the moment. I can wear so many different things and still call it 'my style'. I wish I'd just make my mind up about things...

33 ELS AVENUE

title unnecessary... ♥

Tomorrow morning at exactly 3:30am (yes 3!), I will be getting up and getting ready to go on another trip to The Clothes Show Live, NEC Birmingham. Last year was amazing! I took forty pounds with me, and came back with like, no money and only one pair of bottoms. The market/shops before were shit. But I think it was because I was looking in all the wrong places, and I was unsure of the style I was into. But now, I'm taking ninety pounds and I plan to invest in some half decent things. I'm going to hunt around for the best of the best. I know exactly what to expect, and instead of running round like a kid in a candy shop. I'm going to have a good long look at the stuff I like. Not going to waste my money on crappy merchandise. Free stuff on the other hand... I wouldn't mind carrying. But last year I spent most of my money on these crappy bag things that I used what, Once? maybe twice? before they broke. Load of shit really. But some of my friends got some really nice stuff. I'll be looking out for some vintage stools. I'm not really a true vintage dresser, but I do like some of the quirky assessories and stuff. So I'll be keeping an eye out.

The show on the other hand, was far from a waste of money. It was fucking fantastic. Excuse my french... But seriously the models were LUSH! and the presenters were so good. Not to mention the clothes! I fell in love. And that was before I was even into fashion. I wouldn't be too surpised if this year I cried. Bit far, but seriously. I can just picture it now, it's going to be worse than going into topshop or river island when your broke. Hopefully this year, the beforehand shopping will be as good as the fashion show itself. I best be off, I was meant to be in bed half an hour ago. It's only half eight. But I need some god damn sleep...

p.s. yes, I know the picture says 2009.

32 ELS AVENUE

get smashed, gate crash... ♥

Last night I went to an awesome party. It was my friends 15th birthday, and she decided to have a house party. It was loads of fun, some things got smashed and people were making fools out of themselves. But overall, it was pretty damn cool. I walked like 10 minutes up the road and back very tipsy with 6inch heels on. I took them off on the way back. And my feet froze. I couldn't walk they were hurting so much. But now, my feet have sort of recovered. And there's only a few bruises and cuts. Nothing too serious. But one girl did step right on my foot when I didn't have shoes on. That fucking killed. Must remember to bring back up shoes for next time.

33 ELS AVENUE

fashion, put it all on me... <3

I didn't even realise, but the clothes show is only next week! Looks like I'm going there with no money though. I've asked so much from my parents lately and with christmas coming up, to ask for yet more money is just rude. I'm sure I'll still have loads of fun. The fashion show itself will still be amazing. And as for the shopping part before, I can always just browse. Most of its just a bunch of knock-offs anyway.
I've put the link to my blog on my facebook so now people might read it more. I'm quite anxious that people will think doing a blog is really corny and gay. Oh well, I enjoy it. And it's not like they have to read it.

32 ELS AVENUE

I whip my hair back and forth... <3

I actually hate this song. But it's appropriate being as I'm about to get my hair cut. I love getting my hair cut, even though I'm trying to grow it. M

y hair is in such bad condition, its disgusting to be honest, just full of split ends. I'm not straightening my hair though unless there's special occasions from now onwards. One of the main things I'm looking forward to though, is getting choppy layers put back in! I had choppy layers ages ago, and now on one side of my hair, the shortest layer is in line with my jaw. I'm a bit peeved that I can't get it died for some time, being as my hair is not nearly as blonde as I want it to be. But I'm going to wait a few more months until I re-dye it. That way I can get a full head of highlights all paroxide blonde. Can't wait!

31 ELS AVENUE

winter wonderland... ♥

as you can obviously see, there is way more snow now than before! you can't even see the garden wall separating the patio from the grass. I find my table so funny in the snow. It's got like, half a foot of snow just piled on top. I think there's roughly six inches of snow out at the moment. But we're expected more to come! We've got today off school:D and tomorrow. But tomorrow's a teacher training day anyway. But I hope it snows loads so we don't have to go to school on Monday either. That way I could have a 5 day weekend! I'm sure that could be some sort of record.

Just wanted to say, I'm glad I got what I wished for:)

Hopefully there's even more snow to come!

30 ELS AVENUE

karma's a bitch, and so are you... <3>

a lot of things piss me off nowadays. especially little things, but I wont go on, on yet another rant about things.

Third show of the Wizard Of Oz tonight. You're probably bored of me mentioning it. I actually went to this one. Last night I went to the 'green' down the road and had a snow ball fight with a couple of friends instead. That was all good fun, until I froze to death after falling over and getting soaked.

I'm rather anxious about what I put on my blogs now. You see, some of my friends have started to get blogger, and if I follow them. They will obviously read my blog and see all the stuff I write. I don't know why I'm embarrassed. They're probs reading this thinking 'shes talking about me!' I didn't mind the one or two friends who followed me before. It's just other people. hmm... I don't really care. I'm not going to give up blogging, its much to fun:)

Snow some more please? That way I won't have to get up early again in the morning. And be late for school. I don't know why I say I get up early. I get up at like ten to eight. Leave at ten past. And arrive at school just in time. We have Friday off, but one extra day wouldn't hurt? They say its a 'teacher training day'. But everyone knows that's just an excuse so the teachers can go Christmas shopping. And I don't blame them, they should get an annual shopping day or two before Christmas. Teachers deserve a day off... and if that turns into students get a day off, then there's nothing wrong with that either... I just completely went off subject. Never mind.

Anyway, lets hope December brings much more snow than November! and more days off school!

29 ELS AVENUE

let it snow... <3

As you can see, Southend finally got some snow! This is a picture of my garden.here's not that much snow, only 2 inches or so. But still, it's better than none. I went through out the whole school day without getting hit by a single snow ball. Then, as I was walking home, my friend decided to throw one at the back of his head. I plan to get him back tomorrow.

When I do blogs, I think of loads of stuff to write about. But then, when I get onto notepad I completely forget all my idea's! They end up so boring I bet.

Oh! I remembered one! Tonight, 30 seconds to mars are playing at the O2 arena in London. I was going to go! But the only tickets left were for tonight which is my friends birthday. And no-one else would go with me. They're my all time favourite band. This boy I know is going and all day I've been saying to him I hope he gets snowed in so he can't go. I'm extremely jealous though.

Another show of Wizard Of Oz tonight. I'm so upset that I can't go. I have no way of getting there. Kind of sucks because I was planning to meet people after. Oh well, they'll be other times. I'm off now, going to watch the Boat That Rocked. One of my favourite films ever even if it has really cringy bits. Still hilarious though.

28 ELS AVENUE

we're off to see the wizard... ♥

I'm absolutely knackared after doing my first show of Wizard Of Oz. Its eleven at night on a school night, and I haven't even started on thinking about going to bed. I haven't had lessons in ages so I have a feeling it's going to take forever to back into routine.

This blog is a bit special, although it actually has nothing special to write about it. As you can see the house we're at is number 28 on ELS AVENUE. I thought it was special because I live at number 28. But I've got nothing special to write about.
Anywho, I'm going to leave this blog their because I just might pass out in a minute. Gosh, I'm tired. Night.

27 ELS AVENUE

nothings fair, not even flipping a coin <3

I don't know why I chose this quote as a sub heading. just thought it was quite clever. I've always known the quote, but it wasn't until recently I found out what it was all about. you see, when you flip a coin there's actually a 51% chance of getting heads, and only a 49% chance of getting tails. I'm not so sure why, but there you have it.

I have spent this whole weekend doing nothing. Not even a bit of homework here and there. I really should start concentrating on my school work more. It's odd because since I can remember for the first 4 months or so of starting a new year of school, I always tried my hardest. And this year, I couldn't have done anything more opposite. I'm so close to getting kicked off my dance course and I'm so behind in history.

Well, enough about school and coins. I need to retouch my nail varnish before having to take it off at school tomorrow. That reminds me, not to sure if I've mentioned it, but the Wizard Of Oz is showing this week at my school. I thought I'd be anxious, but I'm not, I'll probably get a bit excited before our first show. Hopefully I won't think to much of it.

26 ELS AVENUE

third times a charm... ♥

I know this is my third blog today, but I just wanted to make a note of a quote I thought of.

'I hate the feeling you get when you know people can hear you, they just aren't listening'

I though of it as I just kinda had an argument with my parents. And they kept saying that I didn't understand their opinion, but I did. I truly understood what they meant. and they kept saying how I wasn't listening and that I don't understand. so in the end I just turned round and said that they were being so hypocritical, saying I didn't understand them when they clearly weren't even listening to me. after that they shut up. and my mum said 'I don't think I get what you mean' so I just said, never mind. and walked away. the sad thing is I wanted her to think about what I said, but I bet it just went through one ear and out the other. sorry, bit of an emotional blog. but had to get it off my chest.
I just realised how many times I used the word 'I' in the past paragraph. How... I can't think of a word for it.

25 ELS AVENUE

boring saturdays... <3

okay, so I know I only blogged an hour or so ago. But i'm extremely bored at this moment in time. I should be at school rehearsals for the production of the 'wizard of oz' but I would've had to get up at quarter to eight. And i doubt a

nyone likes doing that during the week, let alone on saturday. I've got mondays lessons 1 and 2 off so i'll catch up then. anyways, here goes...

Outfit #2

Shirt: Topshop £25

Cupro Shorts: Topshop £33

Tights: Primark £3.50

Socks: River Island £6.99

Shoes: Core £39.99

I somehow managed to edit a load of print screens into this. It took me forever to do, but was a lot of fun. I don't particularily like the shoes, I would've prefered some lace up brogues or if your going out, neat lace up shoes. The reason I had to keep these shoes is because no other shoes I could find would work with the edit. and i thought these didn't look too discusting. As for the cold weather, if you think you'll be chilly just wearing a matching cardigan or jacket, pair this outfit with a bulky faux fur coat or duffle. Jewelarry was hard to edit on, so i gave up. If i was to wear this outfit i would probably just wear a few brown bracelets, like the ones you get on holiday. And maybe a simple long necklace roughly in the same theme as the bracelets.

24 ELS AVENUE

forgetful me... ♥

although I'm constantly on 'blogger' and I always read other peoples blogs. I never actually remember to do my own. I sometimes start blogging but never finish. What I've also found strange about blogging, is i no longer blog in the little 'blog box'. I write it all out on notepad, then copy and paste it on. I think its mainly because I can take up the whole screen instead of that tiny box. But now I don't think i prefer it as my dad recently bought a new computer monitor. I'm not to sure on the actual size of it. I just know its big. Very big. and i can fit 40 words on notepad onto each line. I'm not to sure if i like it or not. Guess I'll have to get used to it though. I've gone a bit of track and I can't remember what I was meant to be blogging about. oh yeah, me forgetting things. How ironic. So, as I was saying... I'm going to try to do more blogs more frequently. There's only one person who really reads them. But she should be happy being as I'm constantly getting told by her to do more blogs.

23 ELS AVENUE

remember my daddy... <3

in assembaly today, we watched a really emotional video about rememberance day. I nearly cried it was so upsetting. Isn't it weird that for two minutes at 11am over half of England was silent. I just wanted to say RIP to all the men who lost their lives fighting in past and present wars.

22 ELS AVENUE

So sacrifice yourself and let me have what's left...<3

LYLMLRS and decided to brush up on a couple of her blogs.
i then got inspiration to blog again. i might redesign my blog a bit. just a few tweeks here and there.
i went shopping yesterday with my mum and auntie. we got quite a few bits and bobs. i was very pleased with the outcome. i got a few bits from various shops; a basic tshirt, some mittens, a hat, jeans, a knitted cardie, genie pants, knitted jumper, skirt, faux leather jacket and some underwear. i wont link all the undies because that would be weird and there was a lot of it. but i did get a really cute bra and kicker set that i just have to link because they're so, well... cute! what did annoy me is that online it says its reduced, but in store i had to pay full price! rip off!

over all i spent just over 300 pound. which as its my whole winter collection, i didn't think was too bad.

my mum cleverly told me to leave topshop until la

st though, and then when we got to it we left it to late and it was shut. i think she did it on purpose. oh well, saved her another hundred pound or so.

when i go shopping i always make the same mistakes. i see something i like. buy it. get home. and find i have nothing to wear it with.

but i've mixed and matched a few bits and bobs. at the moment i'm wearing hareem trousers, black top and my new knitted cardie. i'll probs wear this for rehearsals tomorrow.

eugh, that reminds me. i have to go to bed soon. its half term and i have to get up at half eight to get ready for rehearsals!

oh well, leah's going so it should be fun :)

i've coppied llymlrs idea and made a little 'tag' as you could call it to sign my stuff off with.

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20 ELS AVENUE

i can never think of a sub heading...♥

I've recently become obsessed with Kerrang! Radio. Its like heaven on earth I swear. At the moment they're playing a really gay song. But I'm going to keep listening because I bet they'll play a really good song now. The presenters are really funny.

This weekends been pretty good considering I've done shit all. On Friday night I slept round my friend Rachel's. Then on Saturday had a lazy day but my mum and dad bought me a new perfume. Its Jean Paul Gaultier and its lush! My mum and dad said they didn't realise how much it was until they paid for it. So I got away with a £50 quid perfume. The reason I got it was because I took some GCSE's. And I passed chemistry and physics and my coursework. So they rewarded me with it. I was so happy. Then my dad said he's doubling my pocket money so I get £10 a week. I'm saving up until Christmas which is 14 weeks away. So I should have 140 pound plus the 30 I've got at the moment. I've asked for money from everyone. My mum and dad aren't buying me any 'stocking fillers' I'm just getting an iPhone 4 and money. I worked it out earlier and I should get around 400 all together. Then my mums taking me to London and to bluewater to spend it all. I might get a Louis Vuitton bag. But I'm not to sure yet. I'll see how much I have.

I think I've done a blog before whilst cooking dinner. I just learnt a new trick. I got out a whole new pack of spaghetti, held it all up straight in the middle of an empty saucepan. let go. and it went round in a circle so it all spread out. I was amazed.

Next Blog I might do another outfit because I thought that was quite fun last time.

peace.love.happiness

♥

19 ELS AVENUE

what to wear?.. ♥

outfit #1

River Island

£29.99

Hollister

£60

Topshop

£65

Miss Selfridge

£10

peace.love.happiness

♥

18 ELS AVENUE

According to you... <3

At the moment I'm seriously in love with this guitarist/singer called Orianthi. She's seriously amazing. She was going to play for Michael Jackson on his tour 'this is it'. Until he died. But she's so talented. Click here to see her beat it guitar solo. But she's also an immense singer. Click hereto watch my favourite song of hers. She's got some guitar solo's in that as well. I suppose it's pretty normal for someone to be at that high level of skill, but without being sexist it's weird for a girl to be that good. Also, she's only 24 years old.

I used to play the guitar, up until about a year ago. I would've been that good. Well, probably not. But I would've tried. Wish I stuck to it. I suppose I could get another guitar. Buy a book and teach myself. Maybe... I'd love to be able to play again. Guitar hero isn't good enough some times:/

That reminds me. I'm going to Alton towers on Saturday! I'm so excited because I haven't been there for years! I'm going with my friend Rachel and maybe Megan. I'm also going with my dad, mum, brother and loads of my brothers friends. seriously he's taking loads of people. He's invited Charlotte, Matt, Liam, Jake, topaz, nick, Dave and some others there's to many to remember. But its my friends birthday that day and she's having a dinner/party kinda thing. So it means I cant go to that:/

An advert for Harvey's furniture store just came on. it made me want a reclinabal sofa. :( On that note, I shall leave.

peace.love.happiness

<3

17 ELS AVENUE

bloody hell... ♥

I'm with megan again. Will she never leave? lool, jokes I love her. We both have a slight obsession with Harry Potter. We're watching Harry Potter and the Goblet of fire. Robert Pattinson's in this film. I think he's rather fit, but megan is serioulsy obsessed. But we always thought that he was really ugly in this film because he was so young. But watching it now, we've realised that he is extreamly fit in this. Appart from the bit where he dies. Harry's got really big eyebrows. Not as big as Cedrick Digories (Robert Pattinsons character)

peace.love.happiness
♥

16 ELS AVENUE

No body puts baby in the corner... ♥

Blog on the go(29/7/10):
I'm in bed atm with meg. (sounds kinky. But I'm no lesbian) and we're watching Dirty Dancing. Every time something cringy happens Megan screams really quietly and hides her face. It's really quiet funny. I'm trying to think of what film to watch next. A nice funny film. Either the hangover or zombieland. Or something else. I'll google it. I can't wait for the end of the film. It's my second fave bit. My first fave bit is when they're in the studio dancing and they're grinding. Then the managers nephew walks in and they stop dancing just in time. But its the bit before I like. Well, just like my other phone blogs, this will be very short. Ahh, going now. It's the finale.

peace.love.happiness.
♥

15 ELS AVENUE

Night Night... ♥

Blog on the go(29/07/10):
I've just gone to bed and I can't seem to sleep. Thought I'd do a phone blog. I had a very interesting conversation with Roza earlier. I'm glad I've got someone to talk to about everything. I can talk to some of my closest friends about stuff but then I always feel most comfortable when talking with Roza. I'm really happy I've found a friend who I can be totally honest with.
Don't know why I decided to blog about that. It's barely a blog. I just needed an excuse I suppose to use my phone and try to get used to the keyboard. I'm typing rather swiftly on this thing now. I'm slowly getting quicker If that makes sense. It's going to be hard going to a different phone after having this one for 5 months from now on.
Anyway, best be off now. Got some serious shopping to do tomorrow with the lovely meg. I'm going to France on an activity trip with my school. I'm so excited. But I've got less than half a week to get a tan. So I shall be going to the beach on Friday. Well, I shall bid you a dew and hit the hay. Night.

peace.love.happiness
♥

14 ELS AVENUE

Ring Ring... ♥

Blog on the Go (28/7/10):
Hello. This is quite strange using word on my phone. I just need to get used to it. I could be able to use it at school. I think I will be able to deal with having this phone until Christmas. Can't wait. I will get an iPhone for Christmas. Then with my Christmas money, will get a blackberry on pay as you go. I will never top it up and just use it for BBM so I can save money for texting. Omg, I can't wait now. That's a plan. If I always use this. I could then type it up for a blog and just put; 'blog on the go' then type what I've written on my phone onto blog. Now that, is a plan.

peace.love.happiness
♥

13 ELS AVENUE

i own the green monster♥

Lately, I've been getting really jealous of some people. Like the ones who can afford to just go to London and spend loads of money on designer clothes. Sure, I do have a fair few designer things. But I dunno whether it's just me being 'spoilt' or just a normal desire for things you cant have. My mum and dad always shout at me when I ask for something saying I'm always asking for stuff and that I'm so ungrateful for it all. I'm 14 years of age, its the summer holidays. I'm going to want money.
I really need a job. It's hard enough for a 16 year old to get jobs this time of year, let alone a 14 year old with no work experience and no way of getting a job. Some of us aren't lucky enough to have Dads with Kebab Shops.
I've got a topshop shopping bag on one of my tabs. The total price was £140 at first. But then I thought that was too high. So I lowered it by deleting some stuff. It's now only £95. I'm saving it until my mum and dad are in a good mood. Or if I haven't asked for anything in a while. Then will be like, muuuuuuuumm.... y'know its summer and i have no summer clothes:D. Hopefully if I explain my point that if she buys me this stuff I'll be set for summer and will need to more clothes. She'll get them for me:) But I doubt it.
I sound soo spoilt. Oh well. I am spoilt just without the getting part. Like, I always want loads of stuff, but I never get it. So does that make me spoilt or not?

peace.love.happiness
♥

12 ELS AVENUE

woof, woof, woof ♥

fml! Does my fucking dog ever wanna stop barking? Every time someone comes to the door, woof woof woof woof woof! Drives me insane! Then she just carries on barking for like an hour after. I'm surprised the people still live near us! I'd move if the dog next door kept barking.

Anyway... I've always wondered what it would be like to go crazy. Sometimes I think I'm not quite right in the head, but I'm definitely not crazy. I mean, being able to have all these twisted thoughts, and think it's right? Must be a weird sensation. I mean, being able to think somethings happening, like make up imaginary people. Or to kill someone without realising. Or to even live a lie, and not find out the truth until the day you die, must be some pretty imense shit.

It's like trying to become blind though, you can walk around for ages with your eyes closed. But you'll always peek. Look to the sun for 5 seconds, and you'll never see again. I can walk around thinking wierd thoughts all the time. Or (apparantly this works), if you sit in an empty room for a day or two, and think that everyone you know hates you. The next time you see these people, you will be completely paranoid, this then leads to going crazy. Or just go through a traumatic experience. Most things can make people go crazy.

peace.love.happiness
♥

11 ELS AVENUE

cry me out... ♥

is it bad I always forget to blog? Oh well, the only person that reads them is Roza. She'll be happy to see I've done a new blog. She always bugs me about it. The reason I decided to blog was because the song 'cry me out' just came on. Which reminded me of when me and Roza were dancing round my dining room at my mums party. Then my thoughts ran from there. Hope she's happy.

Aw, 'wake me up when september ends' just came on. My friend shai slept round a few weekends ago, and the song came on and she was like 'oh! i love this song! whats it called? when summer comes?' i was like, 'no shai. just, no' but she knew most of the words to it? wierd child. bless her. I just looked through some photo's of me and her running around in my garden getting soaked by some water sprinkler things. How funny :')

Today's been pretty shite. I got up at 10 am ready to have a shower and start sunbathing. But when I got dressed I realised it was a bit to breezy and cloudy out. So I went in very disapointed. And started to re-do my pc. Which failed epically because now I've lost half my music and fucked up my internet. (excuse my french) eugh, speaking of french. I hate my french teacher. To the max. I'm so glad I didn't take french. The other day in french my friend olivia asked a question about 5 times, and it may have been quite a dumb question, but the teacher didn't answer. She just banged her head on the wall, said olivia was hopeless then walked out of class. Everyone was in complete shock. Then when the bitch came back in, I said to her, 'why did you do that? that was so rude!' then she started shouting at me, and sent me up to my year manager. Who then walked me back to lesson and she told me off, but was doing it in a really nice way. How wierd. But then I just sat in lesson giving my teacher the evils. I hate her. She can go die.

My geography teacher is worse though. She's recently had a baby and hasn't come back because of maternity leave. We all prayed she died in child birth. But that the baby survived obviously. Will have to wait until September to see if she's waddling round school again. Hopefully not(yn)

well, i'm off. It's a bit sunnier now. So going to see if I can get rid of my tan lines.
peace.love.happiness
♥

10 ELS AVENUE

he loves me, he loves me not♥

today, i watched two amazing+weird films. they were both kinda the same. in french at school today we watched a film called, a la folie... pas du tout. which means, he loves me... he loves me not. when you watch a french film you just become so used to reading the subtitles. It's the second one we've watched. Anyway, the film was about some girl who was having an afair with a married doctor. But she was crazy and it was all in her head. He had a wife and a baby on the way. And when he found out he had an amirer/stalker he began to get suspicious of every woman who was his patient. He ends up atacking one of his patience because his real stalker sent him a human heart with an arrow through. He was then arrested. His stalker was very angry about this and then murdered his patient. Oh, but before all this happened, the stalker 'accidently' rode into the doctors pregnant wife on a scooter causing her to have a miscarriage. The doctor then realised who the stalker was and he told her to basically fuck off, so she threw a statue at his head. nearly killing him and forcing him to walk with a limp and walking stick for the rest of his life. she was then taken to a mental home where she pretended to take her tablets, but she secretely made a collage of him behind her wardrobe out of all her untaken tablets and just pretended to see what she has done wrong. she was then let out. and the film ended. it was quite good.

But, oh em gee. The film I watched at home was actually amazing. I cannot begin to explain it. It has a quite long story line, but it has a really big twist at the end. Then about 5 seconds before the credits, it has another twist! Also, the girl in it is actually gorgeous, she's so pretty. Jet black hair, greeny eyes, swiffy fringe, doesnt wear make up and she's stunning. So jealous. I cant remember what the film was called? Oh yeah, the uninvited. that was it. fml it was so clever.
peace.love.happiness
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9 ELS AVENUE

So I was talking to my friend Katie earlier about New York.

And I remembered how much I wanted to live there and stuff. But now I'm starting to have doubts, because I want a nice big house and a garden in a peaceful place for my kids to grow up in. But thats near on impossible in New York. Also, for ages i've wanted to become a lawyer. But I've taken a Creative and Media deploma in school. And I love all computer things and photography and art so this is like perfect for me. But I had this plan for so long, and now I'm slowly changing my mind and I don't know what to do because there's so much pressure on teenagers to know what they want to do. At the moment I havn't got a flippin' clue what I want to do with my life, but I'm already sitting some GCSE's at the age of fourteen. It's unfair that we have to do them early but then if we get higher than a C we're not allowed to retake. So if I did science for another year I could've got an A not a C. And I will never be able to get that grade because I'm not allowed. It serioulsy pisses me off. If I think about it too much I will actually burst into tears. I hate school so much and the fact that all the teachers stick up for eachother and that the children are always wrong. Why can't it just be the god damn adults for once? They don't care about us or are edjucation, just as long as they get their good statistics for C-A* grades then they're happy.

Fucking Cunts.

peace.love.happiness

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8 ELS AVENUE

i am not a robot

So, after reading roza's cute blogs telling the reader to listen to marina and the diamonds, i'm doing what she says. And now I'm listening to Marina and the Diamonds - I'm not a robot. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S_oMD6-6q5Y <-- link to it. It's deffinatley worth listening to, even if you hate the song, or Marina, just listen to the lyrics. They're actually about something that matters and not about some guy who can't get a girl or that has had his heart broken or whatever.

I cant be bothered to blog about mayhem. yeah, i went to an under 18's club earlier. it was pretty shite. but had some really fit guys. didn't have to guts to dance with one once again. meh, idc.
peace.love.happiness.
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7 ELS AVENUE

little monster.

ok, so I didn't blog yesterday because I went to see LADY FUCKING GAGA?! Oh my god. It was by far the best night of my life! She is serioulsy amazing live. She is so down to earth and funny. She's imensly tallented, she climbed onto the piano and started playing it with her heels. She did such random stuff and talked about such random stuff. When she was doing an acoustic of Speachless, she stopped halfway through and started talking about what she heard on the radio. she was like, 'so this morning I was listening to the radio. and i heard that im doing another tour in november. which i didnt know about. so i guess im coming back' she was really funny. then she started shouting to the audience 'ARN'T YOU ALL SICK OF ME?!' everyone was like NOOO! then she got out some massive torch and was like 'its not fair. you all get to look at me but i dont get to look at you' then she started to look at everyone in the audience with her torch. she was like, 'oh my gosh, your all so pretty. i love your wig. your make ups cute' because everyone wore gaga wigs and did lightning bolts on their face like in poker face.
she had this whole theme going on of her trying to get to the monster ball. she kept calling us little monsters. it was amazing. it started with her friends like in a car. which was really a piano. and the car broke down. and they were like 'wheres gaga?' so when lady gaga came. they sang some songs or whatever. then got the subway but got off at the wrong stop. then sang some more. and ended up at what they thought was the monster ball. but it was just some monster, but gaga was deserted by her friends. the monster almost killed her. but the audience saved her by clapping and screaming. some how? then like, she finally got to the monster ball where she finished the show.
it went so quickly i can barely remember what happened. but like, she was so energetic and funny. she was also telling us about why she wrote these songs and one of them she said she wrote about her dad. and then she said it also described her ex boyfriends. and she said that it was because her dad used to drink jack daniels. and then she said all her boyfriends used to drink jack daniels. then she went, 'oh shit. i drink jack daniels'
it was really funny:)
i bought a really cool tshirt which i'm wearing now:) it has her on it in black and white and in gold writing it says, 'I'M A FREE BITCH' its so nice. she said that the monster ball was all about being free and that the freaks were outside the arena and that she has locked the door and thrown away the 'fucking key'
also, she introduced one of her dancers. and she said that he really likes american girls. and then she went, ' and you know what he likes even more than american girls? american boys' and all the gay guys went CRAZY. there was so many gays there it was wierd. funny shit. so yeah, it was absolutely amazing. and i would deffinatley go to see her again. without a doubt. and i'd pay up to 200 quid. she was indescribably imense.
peace.love.happiness
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6 ELS AVENUE

eugh, fml.

I am so pissed off tonight. It started off crap, then got really good and then got the worst. Today was going on fine, and my friend was meant to be sleeping round, but then she couldn't 'cause her dad wouldn't let her or whatever? So I was then bored, but my other friends invited me to the park. I was already pissed because my mum and dad had a party and I was drinking. So I went to the park and had a really good time with this really fit guy. Then my mum called me at 10 to tell me to come in. And I didn't want to so I was getting propper pissed off, then my mum wouldn't let some of my friends sleep round. So because I was allowed 1 person, but not the rest. So no-one slept.

But now I'm just depressed because I watched Avatar and the song at the end makes me cry. Now I'm watching the eurovision song contest with this amazingly pretty singer, and she's actually imense at singing. She's representing AZERBAIJAN? erm, I'm not going to try to pronounce that, even in my head. Ok, change my mind, she may be a good singer, but she's ugly. And this songs shit. 'drip drop' erm, nice one? I wont be voting for azerbiajan. i'm watching it on record anyway, so the winner's already been announced. I'm just going to commentate on whats happening.
Ok, spains coming on now. Some really wierd looking guy, got an afro. But he's white. Singing in spanish. With four characters behind him. What the - ? There's a ballerina, clown, soldier, and mime. Omg, that mime's so scary. OK, now osme random stage man has come onto stage and started dancing? OMFG! AHAHA! SECURITY! LOL! that's funny shit! The songs called Something Tiny. (but in spanish) the best thing about that performance was the random guy running on.
Next is Norway. There's quite a fit guy singing this. The song is called My heart is Yours. Sounds like shit. He belongs on westlife. I will write a letter to westlife or Take That saying they should have this new guy in their band. He's got really droopy eyes. They're well wierd. Sounds like a mix of 'we are sailing' and the american nationa anthem. He wont win. I think Norway won last year? Yeah, with 'im in love with a fairytale' That was a good song by Alexandra Rybak.
Now, Moldova. This has got a fidler. ;) HAHA! Ok this girl looks like a mix of Lady Gaga and La Roux. She has lady gaga's fashion sence, but La Roux hair and make up. And it looks like the La Gaga lady has a twin brother. Who can sing a lot better than her, and looks like robbie williams with bleach blonde hair and JLS clothes. Nice combo? He's got a very sexy singing voice. They have the same hairstyle. Appart from she's got a quif and his is spikey.
Cyprus now, I dont even know where cyprus is? LOL! behind the scenes camera showed the singer with his shirt off and it said I ♥ YOU MUM! well, mom. But still, same meainging. He's got a nice voice:) Sounds like... Dunno. But he's got a really fit face, alrightish hair, crap dress sence. Ah, he just smiled and bit his bottom lip:O that is hot. HE SOUNDS LIKE ZAC EFRON! thats it:)
OK, the singer for Bosnia & Herzegovina is well ugly, crap dress sence and has a name like Vailcoahekajn. Ok, Vukasin. Like it matters? This is quite a rocky song. Pretty cool. 'thunder and lightning' How, his guitar solo's making me jizz. LIP PIERCING FTW! thats sexy. He's like 30. But still, ROCK SONG+GUITAR SOLO+LIP PIERCING=SEX FTW! nom. he's ugly though. So ugly it overtakes all the rock song and guitar solo and lip.
Just 2 hours and 49 minutes to go. If you're still reading this blog. Your imense. Or wierd. Or obsessed.
Belguim. ahh, chocolate;) hello mr ugly. belguims song is really good. even though the singer has a bigger arse than Mr Stanford's. Why do none of these countries have accents when they sing? They all just sound american. Then when they shout out to the audience they sound so foreign. wierd. 'me and my guitar' <-- song:)
Serbia. Omg, this guy actually is the most woman looking guy in the world. its like a girl with no tits. Seriously. Whatta freak. PAHAHA! FUCK ME?! he sounds like he from little town in home country. (imagine that in a wierd foreign accent) Just when i thought people didn't show their accents when they sang. This guy proved me wrong. No wonder serbia havn't qualified since the 1980's. Lol at Graham Nortan commentating, 'That song wasn't longer than all the rest, it just seemed like it. you can count my vote out' LOL! Now some womans commentating and Graham's just talking over her taking the piss. lmao.
Now butterflies by Belarus. I think i've just been blinded by these 3 girls skirts. :o that guy is FIT! omg, and he can sing! omg, he's got really dark brown swishy hair and he's in a poorly fitted tux. He's the main singer. Actually, meh, he's not that fit. This other really ugly guy's got a really good voice. These three girls look so fat in those dresses. you can tell they're not though because they've got really boney arms and faces. NO WONDER IT MAKES THEM LOOK FAT! FUCKING WINGS JUST POPPED OUT FROM THEM! THEY'RE BUTTERLIES! they're like those butterfly barbies that when you push the button their wings POP out. Graham Nortan: 'wheres the bug spray?' ahaha. good one(Y)
IRELAND! WOOOP! sexy irish accents. Ireland won last time their singer sang for them. Woah, I fucking wonder why. She's amazing. She looks well tall. But she doesn't seem like she's meant to look taht tall. She looks like she's meant to be about 5ft. But she's like 7. She's on stilts;) bet you anything;) The girls who are playing the flutes are wearing really nice dresses.
Greece now. With someone who looks like Stavros Flatley. He's singing OPAH! How typical. woah, this dancers fit! he's wearing a sleevless hoodie, with it half done up so his six packs still visible, with the hood up. And got a big sleeve on his left arm.(tattoo) he looks like a pirate. nom. These discriptions of the songs are getting even shorter and shorter. Guess i'm getting more and more tired. ITs like 10 past 2 in the morning.
ENGLAND! ENGLAND! ENGLAND! DONT DISAPOINT! shit, this guys quite yum! woop! omg, i hope they're really good. He can sing. He looks like Mr George, but with a different nose. This singers got a massive nose. The background singers can't sing. Great, England are shit. If this was any other country, I'd be cussing them off so badly. But being as its my country. I bet if this was a worldly song contest 9 times out of 10 america would win. England were shit. they couldn't even sing.
Georgia is singing now. Like, the country. The two dancers are both really pretty boys, and they're wearing eye liner. sexy? She's well good at singing. She's got that rock singer voice, singin a really soft song. It sounds really good. She just sdid some massive groan like she's sexually frustrated. ha. they lifted her up and dropped her. but you couldn't see it very well. paha.
omg, i never knew that Turkey was in europe?! omg, its well emo! ah, i love it. This guys rapping! But he's in a propper band, with like drums and all that shit. And llike, they've al got black and leather and red on. They've got like heavy tattoo's and make up. Then they're called mango. ¬.¬ fail of a name. SHIT! THE ROBOT STATUES MOVING! ITS A PERSON! ahaha. oh, manga. not mango. By the way, my internets down. So I'm watching this and writing into a word document, and will be then saving it. And putting it onto my Blog. Eugh, this is too much effort to write. I'm going to stop it. Then continue tomorrow. Lol, this blog has taken up 2 and half A4 pages already. And I’m not even a 5th of a way through! LMAO!
peace.love.happiness
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5 ELS AVENUE

bitches, bitches, bitches.

for more infomation. please visit http://www.formspring.me/ellieebroth .
you will then be able to see how bitchy shoeburyness high school is. and how some people are nice enough to defend people who they dont even know. out of the goodness of their hearts. Go's to show how unbelievable the world is, and that for every bitch. There's at least 20 people that will stand up for you, to then silence those people and prove them wrong.
peace.love.happiness
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4 ELS AVENUE

S'uppp

School today was a challenge. I got to form to find out my year manager was in, so I turned around and ran out. I wasn't in the mood for her to tell me to take my make up off. So I just made up some excuse about seeing my CPPL. Then I had to get through first lesson, French. Je déteste les Français. Especially with my bitch of a teacher. Speaking of bitchy teachers, I forgot to write a statement about my science teacher. Oh well, I will complain about her next time she calls us brain damaged flea's. So back onto my school day. French sucked, but I did have an assessment which I kinda enjoyed, weirdly enough, because I found it really easy and will be very surprised if I get under 80%. Second lesson was crap to, I can't even remember what lesson I had. But I know it was crap. Okay, that's really freaked me out, I cannot remember what lesson I had second. I've been thinking about this for about 2 minutes now. Anyway, third lesson was the worst, I had Art. And, although I love art, I hate our teacher, and the idiots in my class. They always piss about and get our teacher in a bad mood. So we have to sit and write essays. I got halfway through our stupid project. I have to draw a humans upper body, with a fish's face? How stupid? So I just decided to do a clock instead. Even though I haven't finished colouring the body. Then I had to walk home on my own because the person I walk home with has bloody athletics. Gah, I hate school. Specially atm, but I'm not going to go into that.

I have this weird obsession with writing in foreign languages atm. How bazaar? I can't actually speak any language apart from a bit of French. But hey, that's what the Google Translate bar is for, right? I'm also seeing things. Yesterday, when I came out the bathroom, I saw a man in a white and green stripey t-shirt walk down the hallway in the corner of my eye. But when I turned into the kitchen, my mum, brother and dad were all there. And a second ago I saw a black figure on the floor which turned out to be a speaker with pillow infront. But I thought it looked like a black panther. And at night when I see things in my room, I picture them coming to life and killing me. It propper freaks me out but I love to scare myself. I put my leg out the bed so I feel unsafe and unprotected. I hate the feeling, but love it at the same time. Hmm, maybe I'm menatally disturbed?
Well I think thats enough for one blog.
peace.love.happiness
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3 ELS AVENUE

I saw this photo, and automatically wanted to draw it.

I do love the Eifle Tower, but I think it could be too much detail?

I will try another day, maybe.

peace.love.happiness

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2 ELS AVENUE

Bonjour,

I have just finished designing my profile. It took me about an hour. It was rather confusing, but I got there in the end. I've tried to make everything look the same. With not to many colours, I would hate it if my profile was full of all different colours that don't match. It would just look tacky.

I'm watching Junior Apprentice atm. I don't think Lord Sugar should've accepted the title, 'lord'. Sir Alan Sugar. Lord Sugar sounds like a 1980's bubblegum that was so sweet it sent a shiver down your spine. Some of the 'teenagers' on this program look older than the people fromt he normal Apprentice. One of them has a beard. But its like, really short in some places. It's like he's meant to have a goaty but let it grown out. Like my DT teacher. Ah, I hate my DT teacher. He's a bald ginger dick. We didn't normally have him. I miss my old DT teacher. He was amazing. Well, I'm sure you'd love to hear more about my ginger DT teacher.

On the subject of teachers. A third of my science class have decided to complain about our teacher. That'll teach her for calling us brain damaged. She's actually pathetic. I'm not going to go onto a rant about that now. Cannot be bothered to do any more blogging.
peace.love.happiness.
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1 ELS AVENUE

Ciao.

Being as this is my first blog, I suppose I should share a bit about myself. My names Ellie, call me ELS. Teachers call me Eleanor, but only when they read the register.
I'm a teenager with a normal life.
Not much more you need to know unless you're a psycho who wants to stalk me.

So, because I don't blog, I truelly have no idea what to blog about. I have lots of stuff to write about, but it would be strange that if on my first blog I went on a rant about a load of stuff. I will most likely to write only three or four blogs, then forget about blogger. Which I don't want to happen, but who knows. Anything can happen, right?

Well, on the subject of blogs. I feel as if this one should be ending right about now.
peace.love.happiness.
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